Death don't want me yet!

I wanna die… I won’t pretend

But I don’t cross where it all would end

Somethin’ in me keep pullin’ back

Even when everything fade to black

I wanna die… but I still stay

Cursed to remember every day

Pain keep talkin’, I can’t outrun

But I ain’t done ‘til I’m really done

I wanna die… but I don’t fall

Echoes of me still in these walls

Tried to leave… couldn’t break free

Life keep draggin’ me back to me

Everyone close to me fall… I just watch

Names fade out while I’m losin’ my thoughts

Walk with my family, drift through the same

Findin’ their faces, forgettin’ their names

Everyone close to me gone… I remain

Holdin’ the weight of the love and the pain

Tryna remember but it slip through my hands

I’m still here walkin’… I don’t understand

I been walkin’ with ghosts in a line behind me

Some I still see, some fade when I blink, quietly

Mama said “hold on,” but time don’t rewind me

Pictures in my head but the edges get grimy

Laughs turn echoes, I can’t replay ‘em right

Voices get distant every single night

I reach for their names but they fall outta sight

Like I’m losin’ my past while I’m holdin’ it tight

I ain’t gone yet… even when I feel lost

Still takin’ steps no matter the cost

Family in my soul even when they fade

I carry ‘em forward… even when I break

I wanna die… I won’t pretend

But I don’t cross where it all would end

Somethin’ in me keep pullin’ back

Even when everything fade to black

I wanna die… but I still stay

Cursed to remember every day

Pain keep talkin’, I can’t outrun

But I ain’t done ‘til I’m really done

I wanna die… but I don’t fall

Echoes of me still in these walls

Tried to leave… couldn’t break free

Life keep draggin’ me back to me

When I say “I wanna die,” they just call me insane

But they ain’t seen the pieces I forgot in the pain

Watched the good ones fall, had to stay in my lane

Still standin’ right here while it pour like rain

Don’t get me wrong… yeah, we still strong

Even after losin’ people we was leanin’ on

Rest in peace to souls that done moved on

I carry y’all with me every time I write a song

They don’t see the blanks in my memory fade

Names I used to know just drift away

Moments feel real but they don’t feel the same

Like I’m chasin’ ghosts that won’t show they face

Seen the real ones drop, couldn’t fall with ‘em

Had to keep breathin’, couldn’t crawl with ‘em

Part of me left when I lost my fam

But I’m still right here, I can’t quit again

They call me crazy ‘cause I speak it out loud

silence worse when it sit in a crowd

I ain’t weak, I just carry it proud

All that pain turn weight in a cloud

Rest in peace… yeah, I mean that truth

Y’all found peace, I’m still walkin through

I wanna die… I won’t pretend

But I don’t cross where it all would end

Somethin’ in me keep pullin’ back

Even when everything fade to black

I wanna die… but I still stay

Cursed to remember every day

Pain keep talkin’, I can’t outrun

But I ain’t done ‘til I’m really done

I'm just an old dog waitin

Never beggin

have some dignity