In God's name Dearly departed we are gathered here to throw shade at everyone we hate for leaving us. I mean, fuck, why'd u have to go, an leave us all on our own even tho we're not grown. I'ma go ahead an say it. I really fuckin hate u for leaving me like this pissed off because I'm always picked on an bullied. I never fully understood y it had to be this way but today I Wana quit. it's y I sit with my head in my hand. Can't stand this shit no more to be here but I can't comit a silent suicidle y our loved ones have to die an leave us like this. an fuck ya I'm pissed them babys needed u an this jus ain't fair how it is. I can remember how care free u used to be believing life was long as the house phone calls we all used to be on. I swear I wish there was a phone number that I could call u on an u would pick up. Aunt Paige always says I'm salty jus sad an mad that that baby don't even know her dad. even tho I was an will always be there for them im not sick in the head but sick of prayin to god an him not saying anything back an I'm jus saying it hurts me an them both bad, fuck I lost u in my arms an only mom knows how that feels. Even tho we both went threw it we went threw two different things I lost my baby sister but she lost her baby an that's enough to kill us both but we still get up everyday Eyes tearing up because the pain were feeling is so real an Ill feelings got me in my feelings forever thinking bout the laughs an love we shared chillin like some villians. Even tho u ain't here I know u would be proud how far we have came already an it's really weighing heavy but I know u still care. An don't worry sis I'll be here for mom them babies till my dying breath breathing because when I needed u u weren't always there, but u were when when u were an its a gift an a curse an no matter how bad it hurts I will never give up on any of u. The depression is the proof an the truth is I been sick of living in this living hell I can't tell which way to go right now Or wat the truth really means because at the end of it all we jus greive cuz we lose another fallen angel and the anger gets so bad because we are mad at ourselves for not appreciating the time that we did get. At the end of the day this life is limitless but u gotta take it like a punch to the stomach an keep moving acting uneffected like we didn't grow up in the south abused like we werent dumbies doin drugs now abusive memories is all we can recall after all the shit we went threw with our backs against the wall u think we could have been the ones to make it. I know we deserve better we jus gonna have to take it an find a way to keep goin cuz life is so fony figured u wouldn't even listen to me when I mentioned that the one thing u gone see is I'ma make it big one day jus to see them babys better off but ain't nobody gonna give it to us we gotta take the food that we eat as if life ain't complicated enough for u then wait two minutes till u lose ur heart an soul an u will see too.
