[Style:]
[Piano Ballad]
[Lo-fi Ambient]
[Slow build strings]
[Layered whisper harmonies]
[Verse 1 – ELIROBB (Male) – barely above a whisper]
If I’m honest
I still wonder why
I was the one let go
Before I could even cry
I know the story
I know she was young
But there’s a quiet voice
That says I was the wrong one
I don’t say that out loud
It sounds ungrateful, I know
But some nights that question
Won’t let me go
[Verse 2 – Lily (Female) – fragile tone]
If I’m honest
We smile on command
But there are cracks
They don’t understand
They see the photos
The lights, the stage
They don’t see the silence
Or the hidden rage
[Pre-Chorus – May / Hana harmonies (Females)]
We learned to be strong
Before we were ready
Learned how to carry
Things too heavy
Chorus – All (soft, aching)
If I’m honest
I’m still afraid
That I was too much
Or not enough to stay
If I’m honest
I still blame me
For things that happened
Before I could see
If I’m honest
I don’t always believe
That I deserve
The love I receive
[Verse 3 – ELIROBB (Male)]
When my parents split
I was just a kid
But I replay every moment
Wondering what I did
Did I talk too loud?
Did I need too much?
Was I one more weight
They couldn’t touch?
I know that’s irrational
I know it’s not true
But trauma doesn’t care
What logic tells you
[Verse 4 – Hana (Female) – breaking tone]
We learned perfection
As a defense
If we don’t mess up
We won’t be left
But every mistake
Feels like proof
That love is conditional
And we’ll lose
[Bridge – stripped – just piano]
[ELIROBB:]
I’m tired of pretending I’m healed
[Lily:]
Me too
[ELIROBB:]
I’m tired of acting like it doesn’t still hurt
[May (soft):]
It does
[ELIROBB:]
I’m scared that if people see the real me
[Hana (barely audible):]
They’ll leave
[Final Chorus – slightly stronger, still soft]
If I’m honest
I’m still that kid
Trying to be perfect
For love I already had
If I’m honest
I don’t always see
The worth in the mirror
Staring back at me
If I’m honest
I’m still learning how
To believe I’m wanted
Even now
[No dramatic ending.]
[Just piano fading.]
[Maybe one last whispered line:]
[ELIROBB (alone):]
If I’m honest… I just wanted to stay.
ELIROBB