Verse 1
I said I was protecting my peace
But my peace got quiet
Too quiet
Turned my phone on silent
Called it boundaries
Called it growth
Called it discipline
But really I was shrinking
In the name of healing
I told myself
“I just don’t have the energy”
But the truth was
I didn’t have the light
And when she called it out
Said, “You’re not guarded, you’re gone”
I felt something crack
Because I questioned her
But I’d already been questioning myself
If I have to ask
“Am I depressed?”
Maybe I already know
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Pre-Chorus
I wasn’t weak
I was worn
Not broken
Just buried
Under expectation
Under strength
Under “Kevin got it”
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Hook
I thought I was choosing solitude
But solitude was choosing me
I thought I was saving my energy
But I was losing me
Alone don’t always mean empowered
Sometimes it just means scared
I’m strong
But strength gets tired
Of carrying everything in silence
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Verse 2
So now I’m learning
How to sit with my mind
Without running from it
Learning that rest
Isn’t disappearance
That self care
Isn’t hiding
That protecting my energy
Doesn’t mean cutting off the world
It means choosing
What feeds me
And dance feeds me
Dance don’t ask me to explain myself
It don’t judge my quiet
It don’t need me to be “on”
It just says
Move
And when I move
I remember I’m alive
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Bridge, softer
I love this art
More than I’ve loved most people
Because it never abandoned me
When I isolated
It waited
It held my grief
In rhythm
Held my anxiety
In counts of eight
If I’m going to dedicate my spirit
My time
My energy
Let it be to movement
Until I can love someone else
Without losing myself
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Final Hook, uplifted
I’m not stuck
I’m stretching
Not lost
Just learning
This year is opening
Doors I prayed for
And I’m walking through them
With rhythm in my chest
I’ll get out this show
I’ll get out this weight
I’m not just surviving
I’m building a life
Where I get to live
For me
