Cold Again

I was finally breathin’, finally sleepin’ through the night,

Learned how to carry all the ghosts without a fight.

Pain turned quiet, scars quit screamin’ my name,

Then you opened up the door and lit the whole damn flame.

You touched me like forever, held me like before,

For a couple broken nights I wasn’t empty anymore.

Then your eyes went distant, your voice turned thin,

Now I’m layin’ in the dark tryin’ not to cave in.

God, I hate that I still run to you inside my head,

Every memory cuts deeper than the words we never said.

’Cause all of me reaches for you,

Every shattered piece still bleeds the truth.

You pull me close, then you go cold again,

And it tears me open wider than it’s ever been.

I was healing slow till you let me back in,

Now I’m drownin’ in the hope you killed again.

Yeah all of me reaches for you…

Even knowin’ there’s nothin’ left to hold onto.

I ain’t sayin’ I was perfect, hell I know I made scars,

I carried too much darkness and I dropped it in your arms.

But you were the only place that ever felt like home,

Now the silence in this room feels louder than the bombs.

I keep replayin’ every second, every fight, every lie,

Tryin’ to find the exact damn moment we died.

And maybe you stopped lovin’ me long before tonight,

But my heart didn’t get the message, it’s still holdin’ on tight.

And I swear to God the hardest part ain’t bein’ alone,

It’s knowin’ you can stand beside me and still feel gone.

’Cause all of me reaches for you,

Every shattered piece still bleeds the truth.

You pull me close, then you go cold again,

And it tears me open wider than it’s ever been.

I was healing slow till you let me back in,

Now I’m drownin’ in the hope you killed again.

Yeah all of me reaches for you…

Even knowin’ there’s nothin’ left to hold onto.

So here I am — fists through the wall,

Tryin’ not to break while I’m losin’ it all.

You were the light in every part of me I hid,

Now I’m haunted by the man I could’ve been.

And I can’t hate you…

God knows I tried.

But love don’t disappear

Just because goodbye survives.

Yeah all of me reaches for you,

Like a dying man still reaches for the truth.

You were heaven and hell wrapped in my skin,

And I’d still crawl through the fire just to feel you again.

But the cold in your eyes finally cuts through,

Maybe losin’ you’s the thing I gotta live through.

Still all of me reaches for you…

Even while I’m watchin’ you fade from view.

So if you hear this somewhere down the line…

Just know nobody ever owned this heart like you did.