Lit Me Up

Thought I had too much on my plate (too much)

Every little problem felt great, in the worst way

Kept saying, "this must be a mistake"

Talking like that pain was my name tag

I was drowning in lies

Scroll glow in my eyes

Telling everybody "I'm fine"

When I barely survived

Wouldn’t put down my pride

Sharp tongue, cold replies

Heart heavy like it’s zip-tied

To the mess in my mind (yah)

Running from the mirror, couldn’t face that

Blamed the whole world, wrote the same track

Dark in my chest like a flashback

Tried to drink it down, but it came back

That's when He lit me up

Right there in the crash, in the cut

Pulled me from the mud, from the flood

I was lost in the smoke, in the buzz

That's when He lit me up

Hit my shadow with a holy touch

Turned my "never" to "enough"

Turned my "maybe" into trust

That's when He lit me up

Yeah, pockets light but the soul rich (soul rich)

Used to chase every short fix, long list

Of the times that I folded, I broke quick

Told Him, "if You real, then show it" (show it)

Then peace dropped heavy in the chaos

Like a seatbelt lock in a spinout

He ain’t change the storm, brought a way out

Had to let my fake crown fall, that’s a trade-off

Now I’m cutting off the lies at the root, huh (snip)

Friends still stuck in the loop, huh

They say, "bro, what changed you?"

I just point up, say, "Truth, bruh" (BANZ)

My brother was taken from at ah Yung age wish he would have stayed... free my brother Cecil is what I'm asking God for now he paid with most of his life I'm hoping that you free him we miss and love him