[Verse 1]
Said you hope I crash out
Hope I vanish in my sleep
Type it out with a half-smile
Then delete
Then repeat
You be joking on the timeline
But it cut me to the bone
Turn my name into a punchline
When you bored
When you alone
[Pre-Chorus]
You really want me gone?
Or you just love that power
Throwing curses from your phone
From your couch
From your tower
[Chorus]
You keep wishing death on me
Like I can't hear every word you speak
But it’s your heart you’re burying deep
Shovel in hand
Digging your own grief
You keep wishing death on me
But I keep breathing
Stubborn and free
All that poison you pour on my name
Runs down
Circles back in your veins
[Verse 2]
I remember when you called me
Middle of the night
Falling apart
Now you spit like you never needed
What I gave from a cracked-up heart
Go ahead
Say I’m nothing
Say you hope that I just fade
Funny thing ’bout the rage you’re hugging
It’s your peace that gets erased
[Pre-Chorus]
You really want me gone?
Or to see me bleed and crawl
You can try to write my ending
But that pen stays in my palm
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
If I die
It won’t be from your wish
Won’t be from your hate
From your hiss
It’ll be from a life that I lived too big
Too loud
Too raw
Too real
That’s it
[whispered vocals]
So talk that talk till your voice runs thin
I rise
I fall
But I still walk in
Not your victim
Not your proof
Your curse just shows your truth
[Chorus]