Wishing Death On You

Said you hope I crash out

Hope I vanish in my sleep

Type it out with a half-smile

Then delete

Then repeat

You be joking on the timeline

But it cut me to the bone

Turn my name into a punchline

When you bored

When you alone

You really want me gone?

Or you just love that power

Throwing curses from your phone

From your couch

From your tower

You keep wishing death on me

Like I can't hear every word you speak

But it’s your heart you’re burying deep

Shovel in hand

Digging your own grief

You keep wishing death on me

But I keep breathing

Stubborn and free

All that poison you pour on my name

Runs down

Circles back in your veins

I remember when you called me

Middle of the night

Falling apart

Now you spit like you never needed

What I gave from a cracked-up heart

Go ahead

Say I’m nothing

Say you hope that I just fade

Funny thing ’bout the rage you’re hugging

It’s your peace that gets erased

You really want me gone?

Or to see me bleed and crawl

You can try to write my ending

But that pen stays in my palm

If I die

It won’t be from your wish

Won’t be from your hate

From your hiss

It’ll be from a life that I lived too big

Too loud

Too raw

Too real

That’s it

So talk that talk till your voice runs thin

I rise

I fall

But I still walk in

Not your victim

Not your proof

Your curse just shows your truth