Looking in the mirror
Dont what like I see
Chest feeling tight and now I can't breath
In and out (out)
Need to do a reroute
Ears still ringing
Yall got me singing
Growing up it was rough
Waking up
Shaken up
Breaking up
That's what I dealt with
Hiding in my closet
so I wouldn't have to be dealt with (with)
Manipulation
Temptation
That's what I knew
Always told me what to do
Had control
Got my soul
On lock mode
Switching moods
That's what you do
Screaming one minute
And then coming at me
Head butting me
Had me Screaming let me be free
Praying to God every night
Cause I got tired of those fights
Screaming from left to right
Had the cops coming
Leaving you and hand cuffs
While they sat back and laughed
Had fear in my body and eyes
While I said my goodbyes
Watched you getting walked out
Screaming and crying what was this even about
So confused and so angry
Asking for God to save me
Knowing if I was left alone
It would get worse
Just wait until you hear this next verse
Didn't like what you heard
Understanding what just occurred
Not using to me standing up for myself
Acting like I'm crazy
Asking do you know who raised me
Thinking yeah it was you
Don't you have a clue
The shit you put me through
Manipulation
Temptation
Always saying I'm misbehaving
Taking things from left and right
Locked me out
And told I hope someone comes and takes you
Screaming help me and let me in
At 3am
Leaving me behind
What if that was a sign
Always trying to deny
Your actions
Always getting my reaction
I'm tired and I'm done
None of this wasn't fun
You were supposed to protect me
But you did nothing but damage me
I will always love you and care for you
But I'm just finally done with you
Now you're all confused
Don't know what to do
Barely have anybody there for you
You did this to yourself
Wondering what's left
Got me so messed up
Trauma left me with PTSD
got those triggers Spiraling
Hearing someone screaming
Got me shaking feeling the past
Of what I went through
Tryin to calm down and so confused
About what to do
It's been 7 years and I still feel
Those things I went through
Yes I got help and had to be dealt with
But you were barley therefor me
And if you was you through it in my face at the end of the day
Saying I was unappreciated and don't care for nobody but myself
But now your sitting all by yourself
My brother don't even talk to you
See what you did
Don't you even have a clue?
Now the other brother still wonders if you should even be around
Can't you just hear that sound
Feeling like we're drowned
Manipulation
Temptation
That's just what you do
But yet I still love you
But it's time to love from a distant
