Your Pretty Heart

It’s 1:45am right now in Milwaukee

And I’m about to lose myself

Wondering where you are if you are anywhere

someone should be there for you right now you’ll need a friend

And you always fought so hard for something

even when it didn’t exist

years passing by with no resistance

Months of putting up with the same old shit

And I wonder

if I was your pretty heart would it mean I didn’t I give up on you when things got hard? would it mean in the pouring rain I’d chase you down instead of running around in my head? if I was your pretty heart would I have put you first instead of putting myself on the highest ground?If I was your pretty heart would you still be around?

Letting go seemed like it would be easy

Starting to think that may have changed

Felt as though you weren’t my forever

But I’m missing the way we used to kiss

And you always laughed so hard at nothing

Always got me through the roughest days

Years passing by with no resistance

kept putting up with my same old shit

if I was your pretty heart would it mean I didn’t I give up on you when things got hard? would it mean in the pouring rain I’d chase you down instead of running around in my head? if I was your pretty heart would I have put you first instead of putting myself on the highest ground? If I was your pretty heart would you still be around?

The 3am questions

Wake up in a sweat

loved me unconditionally

I put that to bed

dust covered windows

Hiding my truth

I didn’t want to wake up to you

It was always clear in the cloudiest way

I wish that I had wanted you to stay

Told you that you’d be the one I’d meet at the alter

At a certain time I swore that was true

Told you that I’d be there at your worst times

Now you’re at your worst because I’m leaving you

It’s 1:45am right now in Milwaukee

Im wishing you were here

So I could say I’m sorry

if I was your pretty heart would it mean I didn’t I give up on you when things got hard? would it mean in the pouring rain I’d chase you down instead of running around in my head? if I was your pretty heart would I have put you first instead of putting myself on the highest ground?If I was your pretty heart would you still be around?