[Intro]
Eyes red
Phone lit
Room spins
Heart sick
[Verse 1]
You left your hoodie on my chair
Smells like last year, still right there
Scrolling through your ghost in the blue light glare
Typing out a text that I won't ever dare
I pour a little venom in my paper cup
Saying, "I’m fine, I’m fine," but I’m breaking up
Friends in the backroom yelling, "Turn it up"
I’m laughing too loud
Just to drown this stuff
[Chorus]
Bottoms up
Till I feel nothing
Burn my throat
Kill that loving
If it hurts like this
I don't need trust
If the past won’t quit
Then it’s
Bottoms up
[Verse 2]
I see you in the mirror when the bass hits hard
Your name in my teeth like a swallowed shard
Every "I’m good" that I spit is scarred
Every new face just another guard
I run through the city with my jaw locked tight
Cheap high, deep sigh, picking new fights
Tell ‘em, "I’m a monster, I don’t do nice"
But I’m just that kid
You walked past, twice
[Pre-Chorus]
Every sip, every slip
Yeah, I call your name
Every joke, every hit
Still the same old pain
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Heart on the floor
Glass in my shoes
Lose one more friend
For the thrill of the bruise
I’m mad, I’m sad, I’m loud, I’m stuck
Pray for peace, still begging for the rush
If I ever say "healed," that’s a cover-up
Hand to the sky
Then I raise that cup
[Chorus]