Remembering

I remember having feelings that I had to watch my siblings and telling my cousin Terry and redbug about it.I was told maybe I'm tripping and I was hoping I really was tripping.

then came the day one of my siblings asked my cousin to set me up so he could jump on me. he said nobody had to know he set me up and he wouldn't tell anyone if my cousin would do it for him .

it bothered me so bad I was in tears of anger. I seen him set up friends when we were kids but never thought my sibling would do that towards me at all .

till this day he doesn't know I know about it and tries to come up laughing and talking to me as if nothing has happened at all.

I'm the type I don't know how to play fake like we are Kool it's not in my blood at all . I refuse to play like we are the best of friends and family in front of people just to have people think we are best friends or close brothers.