I walked so far inside my head
Even the shadows said I was dead
I carved my name in the underside of hope
Buried my spine in a noose made of rope
Every thought was a knife in disguise
Every mirror told comfortable lies
Rotting prayers in the back of my throat
I fed the dark till it learned how to vote
King of the ruins I swore I controlled
But the crown cut deep and the blood ran cold
I made a home in the echo of pain
Called it strength, called it sane
I was lost in the blood of my name
Face down in the fire I made
But I clawed through the dirt and the shame
To remember I’m more than the pain
I screamed my way out of the grave
Broke my teeth on the chains
If the dark is a part of my soul
Then I’ll drag it back into the light
I been pacing inside of a warzone brain
Every thought ricochet, no control, no reign
Talk to myself like a loaded gun
Say “one more step” then I reload one
I wasn’t born evil, I learned survival
Built walls so high they blocked my revival
Drowned in pride, called it confidence
Truth was I was scared of consequence
I hit bottom, then I dug deeper
Thought pain made me a real believer
But the pit don’t care what you think you are
It’ll eat your heart, then ask for more
You don’t escape the dark
You turn around
And face it
Bite the hand of despair
I bled my way to clarity
Pain was never my identity
I learned the monster wears my face
But that don’t mean it owns my place
I name my demons, make ’em small
Watch ’em shake when I stand tall
I don’t erase the scars I earned
They’re proof of lessons finally learned
If I survived what lived in me
Then I’m stronger than my memory
I was lost in the blood of my name
But I rose from the bones of the same
I am not what I buried inside
I’m the one who came back alive
Yeah, I walked through hell but I mapped the route
Found my voice when I bled it out
The dark didn’t leave
I just learned how to lead
PoisonofIvy
