Static on the Line

You say you’re gonna leave me

Before you even walk in the door

I’m arguing with a ghost of you

Pacing holes in the floor

You look at me like I’m crazy

I’m already halfway gone

Every word you haven’t spoken yet

I’m hearing it all wrong

It’s just thoughts in my head on a loop again

Telling me you’ll walk out, say you’re better as a friend

Turning every little silence to a goodbye sign

Like there’s static on the line

Yeah these thoughts in my head, they don’t sound like me

They’re twisting up the truth till I can’t breathe

You’re holding out your hand, but it feels like you’re letting me fall

So I push you away before you can leave at all

You’re five minutes late to dinner

My mind jumps to someone else

I scroll through every worst-case scene

Till I don’t recognize myself

You say “baby, what’s the matter?”

I say “nothing, I’m just tired”

While my chest is full of thunder

And my heart’s wrapped up in wire

It’s just thoughts in my head on a loop again

Telling me you’re bored stiff, halfway out, playing pretend

Turning every changed plan to a goodbye sign

Like there’s static on the line

Yeah these thoughts in my head, they don’t sound like me

They’re painting you a villain in my story

You’re reaching for my face, but it feels like you’re pulling away

So I slam every door ‘fore you got a chance to stay

I know it isn’t fair

You love me standing here

But I’m braced for impact, flinching from your name

If I say it out loud

Will it chase off the clouds?

Or will you see the mess and walk away? (oh)

‘Cause it’s thoughts in my head on a loop again

Telling me you’ll leave just like everyone did then

Turning every small crack to a fault line

Like there’s static on the line

So I’m begging you now, when I seem cold and mean

When I pick a fight with things you never even mean

That’s the fear in my bones, that’s the voice that won’t let me trust

But your hand on my heart says I’m still worth the fuss

Yeah your hand on my heart

Cuts through all that noise

Till it’s just your voice

Just your voice