You know I wanna hold you every time you leave, silently begging you not to go, every time we are together I know we won't grow old together, I know I won't be alive long although I wish it wasn't as painful for you to spend time with me.but a price of me is hurt I know I can't be here forever,tho I only wanna spend everyday i have left woth you,I can't seem to understand though I know your leaving and you push me away but your thoughts run through my head as if we are rate next to eachother laying there as if we were talking tho miles apart, your everything I want in life, I wanna know what makes your life float on this endless water fall,what makes you happy, what struggles you have,please take a second and understand that I know you feel stuck and I know you don't have a plan. But I would love you just the same as if we we're ment to be together if we lived in a card board box underneath. A bridge.byou make me happy and compleat me with out even saying anything at all.if I we're to die today because some one took my life, I want you to know that I'm in love with you and I don't have any regrets you have always been my light in this dark time. Something I always looked forward to seeing. Something I couldn't breath with out. And even tho we fought a lot I regret ever hitting you because you don't deserve to be treated like that. I feel like I could kill if anyone ever hurt you,I worried about you all the time and I know that you love me just as much, and I know the pain it must be knowing that we won't be forever, but just a moment in time that two broken people who should of never met. But yet here we are broken together,and I know you feel me because everyone of breath I take every ounce of air I conceal let's me know the pain is real.pounding on my soal like a ton of bricks sinking in to a puddle of tears so deep that it hurts to open my eyes.and I love you and wish I was well enough to provide for you the fabulous life style i know you want to be living. If my broke and pathetic ass can only provide you with everything I own, I hope it's enough for you to still be here when I take my last breath. I can't breath to think of you not being close by and getting lost every time you leave, and when your gone for periods of time, I can't sleep because I'm scared you left me here alone, to die alone. And I crie until you return because I know I'm gonna be leaving you alone, and you must feel the same way I do.i hope you know I'm not the coolest not the richest not the prettiest,and I'm to skinny, but for the longest time you have made dying a hell of a lot easier then just sitting there to die on. A couch at the manor, you got me to love life again,and to be happy and look forward to living another day, and if this was my last letter I want you to know it was worth it and it was amazing to have the connection, my heart will beat for you even after I take my last breath. It'll never be good bye my love will forever be with you and in you.xoxoxo
