[Verse 1]
Staring at the ceiling fan
Half spin
Then it gives up
Just like me
Ashtray on the windowsill
Last night’s thoughts piled up
Still burning slow
Phone face down on the bed
All those names I ghost but I haunt instead
Mama say I look so tired
But I been like this since I learned what “forever” meant
[Chorus]
I got dust on my halo
Rust on my faith
I keep praying to a past life
That I can’t replace
I’ve been holding my breath
In this borrowed skin
Every time I think I’m healing
I just crack again
[Verse 2]
Walk past the mirror
Side eye
Can’t look too long
It might look back
Old hoodie with the torn cuff
Smells like smoke and a home I’ll never have
Friends hit me
“Slide tonight”
I type “for sure” then toss my phone aside
I can’t fake that kind of light
When my chest got a storm they can’t stand inside
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Talking to the ceiling like it answers
Tracing every stain like a map
If I leave all my hurt on these blankets
Will it stay when I don’t come back?
Heart been heavy
Yeah
Heavy like wet clothes
Hanging in a room that the sun don’t know
If you see me and I seem okay
Just know that’s a costume I outgrew days ago
[Chorus]