[INTRO deep synth bass, soft kick drum]
[verse 808 drum, rhythmic electronic drums]
I'm autistic, introvert with A.D.D.
disorganized, but blessed with O.C.D.
I get panic attacks thanks to G.A.D.
I probably have the I.C.D. in my family tree
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
it sounds like a lot, but I'm doing fine
home with my dog and a few of my closest people
(Love my dog. He's the best)
the outside world is my biggest issue
People who know of me but don't know who I am (they don't have a clue)
[Chorus][soft kick drum]
I've got issues, but I'm coping(coping)
i don't need advice about crystals, cleansing, or breathing (oh no no)
i can handle my demons, so stop butting in.
i don't have to get out more.
I enjoy staying in (yes, I really do)
[verse]
on occasions, I have no choice
take my magic meds, and then I go
O o o o
fix my hair and force myself out
(Out, out, out)
[Rythmic drum]
[Full stop]
every light is switched on, and all thoughts are nice and clear
I'm focused like a hawk, swift like a navy seal
(Everything is crystal clear)
I run into some people I kinda know
Can't avoid them.
There's nowhere to go.
Da da da dam
I know where this is going, I've done it all before
here we go
[Break]
the high-pitched hiiiii, compliments, how you doing
we must this, we must that, of course, let's do it.
(It's almost over)
oh damn I'm invited to a party.
my meds convince me it sounds awesome
I can't stop myself. it's decided. I'm going
[Chorus]
yes, I've got issues, but I'm coping
let me do it they way I want it
I don't need an exorcism or crystals in my bra
I'll be fine. Don't drag me out
I'll be fine here at home
[verse]
next day I check my phone
missed messages
directions to the party
group chats about makeup.
discussions about shoes
Oh no no no no (what did I do)
my mind is racing.
what should I wear, what should i say, should I take a bus or cab?
(I don't know, I don't know, I don't...)
OH get real! who am I trying to fool?
(HA, HA, HA , HA)
even my dog knows I'm not going
(THERE'S NO WAY I'LL GO)
anxiety builds, my head is spinning.
i need to let them know know, know, oh no, no, no, no
I just write in the group chat
They can think what they want,
But I'm staying home with my dog
[Break]
Hi girls
something came up, I won't make it
talk later, have fun
[Chorus pre-outro]
i know I've got issues, but I'm ok
as long as I can cope in my own way
i don't need a lot of friends
i don't have the need to party
I'd rather just chill at home with my dog
[outro]
[808 drum]
there's no need to worry
no need to drag me out
I'm doing life in my own way
don't feel sorry because I'm not like you
I don't want to change, don't try to adapt me to be more like you
those are things you like to do
I think it's awesome so you be you
ooo oo ooo ohoh ooo
let me be me
that's all I need from you
belive me, I'm fine
I'm ok
just living life
my way.
Lost on the spectrum
