Leaving the light on

The house is quiet

But my head is loud

Every memory

Walking around

Like ghosts in the hallway

Calling my name

Reminding me

I’m not the same

I tried to be strong

I tried to be brave

But I’m still just a kid

In a grown man’s face

And I don’t have the answers

I just have this ache

That I’m trying to survive

One night at a time

I don’t know where I’m going

But I know I don’t wanna stay

So I’m leaving the light on

In case I get lost

In case the dark

Feels a little too strong

I don’t know if I’ll make it

But I’m not done

I’m leaving the light on

I’m leaving the light on

For the part of me

That still believes

In something I can’t see

Even if I’m scared

Even if I’m wrong

I’m leaving the light on

I’ve been walking

Through my mistakes

Carrying weight

I can’t erase

Every regret

Every goodbye

Feels like a door

I left behind

But maybe tomorrow

I’ll find my way

Back to the person

I lost in the pain

I don’t need to be perfect

I just need to try

To not give up

On my own life

I’m not healed

But I’m not gone

So I’m leaving the light on

Through the night

Even when I can’t see the signs

I don’t know how this ends

But I’m still holding on

I’m leaving the light on

I’m leaving the light on

For the days ahead

For the version of me

That hasn’t been met

Even if I’m scared

Even if I’m not strong

I’m leaving the light on

Maybe this isn’t the ending

Maybe it’s just a pause

Maybe the story keeps going

Even when I feel lost

I don’t need all the answers

I just need a spark

Something to guide me

Out of the dark

I’m leaving the light on

In my soul

In case I forget

I’m not alone

I don’t know where I’m going

But I still belong

So I’m leaving the light on

Even if fear comes back

Even if I fall

There’s a part of me

That still wants it all

So I’m not closing the door

I’m not turning it off

I’m leaving the light on