[Verse 1]
I never told you what you were to me,
hid every word behind a smile.
I thought I had a little more time,
so I kept quiet for a while.
You were the name behind my thoughts,
the one I never dared to choose.
And now somebody else has found you
while I’m standing here to lose.
[Pre-Chorus]
I could scream until my voice gives out,
I could cry until there’s nothing left.
’Cause the words I should have given you
are choking in my chest.
[Chorus]
I never told you I was falling,
never told you I fell hard.
Never said I fucking missed you
every second we’re apart.
Now she’s standing where I wanted,
and I’m watching from the side.
God, I wish I’d had the courage
just to tell you what I hide.
I miss you like hell,
more than you will ever know.
And I’d give anything tonight
to go back before I let you go.
[Verse 2]
Take me back to the Netherlands,
to that water, skin and steam.
Back when you were right beside me
and this wasn’t just a dream.
Back inside that fucking hot tub,
where the whole world disappeared.
I didn’t know I’d spend forever
wishing I had held you near.
Maybe I should’ve leaned in closer,
maybe I should’ve said your name.
Maybe if I’d told you everything,
nothing would have stayed the same.
[Pre-Chorus]
Now every memory cuts deeper,
every silence sounds like you.
And the hardest part of losing this
is you never even knew.
[Chorus]
I never told you I was falling,
never told you I fell hard.
Never said I fucking missed you
every second we’re apart.
Now she’s standing where I wanted,
and I’m watching from the side.
God, I wish I’d had the courage
just to tell you what I hide.
I miss you like hell,
more than you will ever know.
And I’d give anything tonight
to go back before I let you go.
[Bridge]
Does she know the way you saved me
without knowing what you’d done?
Does she get the side of you
I still can’t stop running from?
And I know I have no right
to ask you not to choose her now.
You never promised me forever—
I never even told you how.
How I loved you.
How I wanted you.
How I saw you everywhere.
How I would’ve chosen you
if I’d only fucking dared.
[Final Chorus]
I never told you I was falling—
now I’m screaming it too late.
You found somebody while I waited,
thinking time would fucking wait.
Now I’m back here on the sidelines
with a heart you never knew.
And the cruelest fucking part is
I can’t even blame you.
I miss you like hell.
God, I wish that you could know.
I’d trade every day without you
for that one day long ago.
Back in the Netherlands,
back before I knew goodbye.
Back there in the water with you—
before you became
the love I never told
and the reason that I cry.
[Outro]
I never told you.
I never told you.
And now someone else gets
what I was too afraid to lose.