Screaming in the pillow

Verse 1

Six little shadows down the hall

Tiny shoes lined against the wall

I gave my body, gave my years

Held this whole house together through tears

Burnt out candles, sink full of plates

Running on prayers and staying late

Mama hands and tired eyes

Smiling through a thousand goodbyes

But when the daylight finally died

That’s when I disappeared inside

Pre-Chorus

And nobody heard me breaking

Nobody saw the fear

I learned how to cry without making

A sound anybody could hear

Chorus

In the dead of the night

I was screaming in my pillow

Begging God to hold me tight

While my soul went cold and hollow

After all the love I gave

After all the years I carried

I became a ghost afraid

Inside the vows where I was buried

And the silence was the deepest kind of pain

When the person saying “I love you”

Was the one I had to survive again

Verse 2

Morning came, I packed the lunches

Braided hair and counted crutches

Covered bruises no one knew

Wore my strength like mothers do

Church clothes and a painted smile

Pretending I was fine awhile

But every mirror knew the cost

Of all the pieces that I lost

I kept the world from falling down

While I was drowning without a sound

Pre-Chorus

And every tear inside that fabric

Felt like a funeral prayer

A woman can die in slow motion

And still be standing there

Chorus

In the dead of the night

I was screaming in my pillow

Begging God to hold me tight

While my soul went cold and hollow

After all the love I gave

After all the years I carried

I became a ghost afraid

Inside the vows where I was buried

And the silence was the deepest kind of pain

When the person saying “forever”

Was the one who left the stain

Bridge

But listen close—

I’m still breathing

Still here beneath these scars

And every shattered piece of me

Still reaches for the stars

You didn’t take my motherhood

You didn’t take my name

And one day I will tell my story

Without carrying your shame

Final Chorus

Now in the dead of the night

I still cry into the pillow

But there’s a fire beside the pain

Where something stronger starts to grow

For every woman lying awake

Thinking nobody would believe her

Heaven counts every single tear

And survival makes a believer

And one day these trembling hands

Will hold a life that feels brand new

‘Cause the woman you tried to silence

Finally sang the truth.