All these decades that passed by
So many times I failed to try
The countless times that I did cry
Those moments I thought I'd die
Pain and struggle I've had my share
Some days more than I could bare
A childhood of memories and lots of love to share
A life with love and children love was always there
My story isnt perfect
I didn't live it all well
It's easy to now reflect
And see I sometimes made it hell
But I wouldn't change the life I lived
It brought me to today
I made it this far, yeah I survived
And I did it all my way
I lost a child along the way
A reality that haunts every day
My nerves dulled my skin got thicker
It made it a little easier to reach for the liquor
Many losses heartaches and tears
Enough pain to overcome my fears
I worked many jobs gained life experience
Made little money while proving my resilience
Now at the sundown my 4th season
I look back wondering if itsa life with no reason
Wounded mortally by a disease that won't quit
I could survive as long as the meds would permit
My story isnt perfect
I didn't live it all well
It's easy to now reflect
And see I sometimes made it hell
But I wouldn't change the life I lived
It brought me to today
I made it this far, yeah I survived
And I did it all my way
Not always pretty and often filled with pain
Its my own unique tale no matter how insane
I've got regrets but only a few
Living without regret was what I always said I'd do
Not the greatest the brightest or best
But I did things my way and I still passed the test