Edge of Sanity

All these decades that passed by

So many times I failed to try

The countless times that I did cry

Those moments I thought I'd die

Pain and struggle I've had my share

Some days more than I could bare

A childhood of memories and lots of love to share

A life with love and children love was always there

My story isnt perfect

I didn't live it all well

It's easy to now reflect

And see I sometimes made it hell

But I wouldn't change the life I lived

It brought me to today

I made it this far, yeah I survived

And I did it all my way

I lost a child along the way

A reality that haunts every day

My nerves dulled my skin got thicker

It made it a little easier to reach for the liquor

Many losses heartaches and tears

Enough pain to overcome my fears

I worked many jobs gained life experience

Made little money while proving my resilience

Now at the sundown my 4th season

I look back wondering if itsa life with no reason

Wounded mortally by a disease that won't quit

I could survive as long as the meds would permit

My story isnt perfect

I didn't live it all well

It's easy to now reflect

And see I sometimes made it hell

But I wouldn't change the life I lived

It brought me to today

I made it this far, yeah I survived

And I did it all my way

Not always pretty and often filled with pain

Its my own unique tale no matter how insane

I've got regrets but only a few

Living without regret was what I always said I'd do

Not the greatest the brightest or best

But I did things my way and I still passed the test