Silent War

Wake up, stare at the ceiling

Same four walls, same old ghost

Everybody says I'm alright

'Cause the outside still looks whole

Open the door, crack a tired smile

Say "I'm fine" like a rehearsed line

But there's a storm behind these eyes

Been raging here a long time

Just because you don't see my pain

Doesn't mean it ain't there

These hidden tears still leave a stain

You just can't see where

There ain't a scar you can point to

Or a drop of blood on the floor

But I'm hurting, yeah I'm hurting

Fighting this silent war

They say, "You look fine"

Shake my hand, then turn away

They don't see the nights

I can't wash off from the day

Smile like a porch light

Burning out behind my eyes

Carry on small talk

While a storm crawls through my mind

Just because you don't see my pain

Doesn't mean it ain't there

These dry eyes still feel the rain

Even when they don't tear

There's no scar you can point to

No blood on my shirt

But I'm bruised to the bone in a heart you can't chart

I'm fighting a silent war

Fighting a silent war

Laugh at the table

Pass the bread, pass off the truth

Change every subject

When it cuts a bit too close to you

You say, "Everybody's

Got their stuff, you'll be okay"

I nod like you fixed it

Then fall apart on the drive away

Just because you don't see my pain

Doesn't mean it ain't there

These hidden tears still leave a stain

You just can't see where

There ain't a scar you can point to

Or a drop of blood on the floor

But I'm hurting, yeah I'm hurting

Fighting this silent war

You won't find bandages on me

Just jokes I throw like smoke

Change the subject, change the channel

Any time the truth gets close

Shake your hand, talk about the weather

Hold it together till you're gone

Then I fold up on the kitchen tile

Till the night turns into dawn

Some battles don't leave bandages

They just leave you tired and thin

If you could wear my heaviness

You'd never say that it's all in my head again

[low vocal register] I'm holding on, holding on

To the hope you'll see me at last

If you ever hear me go quiet

That’s me shouting for help inside

If you ever see me still and steady

That’s me barely holding the line

So if my smile feels a little shaky

Little faded, little worn

Take my hand, don’t ask for proof

Just stand with me in this war