[Verse 1]
You left your coffee on the counter
Like you were coming back someday
Your jacket’s hanging by the doorway
I still don’t have the heart to put it away
You said that love should feel like breathing
But lately I was holding mine
Funny how you called it freedom
While I was begging for more time
[Pre-Chorus]
And I hate that I still hear you
In every quiet room
I hate that every memory
Still feels too much like you
[Chorus]
So tell me, was it mercy
When you looked me in the eyes
And said you couldn’t love me
While your hands were holding mine?
Was it mercy when you kissed me
Like you never meant goodbye?
‘Cause if this is your version of kindness
I’d rather you had lied
You didn’t have to save me
You didn’t have to try
But God, you could’ve spared me
The mercy of goodbye
[Verse 2]
I learned to sleep without you
But I still wake up on your side
And every stranger in the distance
For half a second wears your smile
I tell my friends I’m getting better
I say your name and barely shake
But healing’s just a word we give
To learning how much hurt we can take
[Pre-Chorus]
And I know I shouldn’t miss you
After everything you did
But the cruelest part of losing you
Is loving you like this
[Chorus]
So tell me, was it mercy
When you looked me in the eyes
And said you couldn’t love me
While your hands were holding mine?
Was it mercy when you kissed me
Like you never meant goodbye?
‘Cause if this is your version of kindness
I’d rather you had lied
You didn’t have to save me
You didn’t have to try
But God, you could’ve spared me
The mercy of goodbye
[Bridge — quiet]
Maybe one day I’ll forgive you
Maybe one day I won’t care
Maybe your name will lose its meaning
And I’ll stop wishing you were there
[Build]
But tonight I’m still the person
Who would’ve given you my life
And you’re somewhere learning how to live
While I’m learning how you died
Inside of mine
[Final Chorus — big]
So don’t call it mercy
Don’t tell me you were kind
You broke my heart so gently
I almost called it love that night
You held me like forever
Then disappeared by morning light
And if leaving me was loving me
Then loving me was cruel
You didn’t have to save me
You didn’t have to try
I just wish you hadn’t taught me
How beautiful goodbye can lie
[Outro — piano only]
Your jacket’s still beside the doorway
Maybe tomorrow
I’ll put it away.