Checking Out to Check In

​[Intro]

(Upbeat, driving 808 bass kicks in with bright, shimmering synths)

(Ad-libs: "Eyepiercinglove..." "New day, new mercies." "Checking out to check in." "Yeah.")

​[Verse 1]

My thumb is hovering right above the blue

Wondering if that "active" light is shining over you

I’m fighting the urge, I’m breaking the chain

Trying to keep your status from living in my brain

You gave me a word that made the ice start to break

But I’m moving with caution for my own heart's sake

(Stayed off the feed) (Not today)

​[Chorus]

You said I’m perfect in your eyes and I started to melt

The heaviest weight that I think I’ve ever felt

But I’m keeping my distance, I’m keeping my peace

Finding the strength to let the checking cease

Yeah, I’m perfect in your eyes, but I’m focused on mine

Walking this path and I’m drawing the line

(Drawing the line) (Focused)

​[Verse 2]

I’m staring at the woman looking back in the glass

Watching the shadows of the digital pass

I’ve got melodies waiting to burst from my chest

Putting the noise and the voices to rest

I’m reclaiming the hours, I’m reclaiming the glow

Of a woman who finally knows when to go

(My own rhythm) (My own glow)

​[Verse 3]

You’re doing your Jonah study, trying to find the shore

While I’m over here realizing I don't need the war

I’m throwing off the weight, throwing off the sin

Closing the door so the healing can begin

You apologized for failing a "daughter of God"

Now I’m walking on the spirit, I’m walking on the rod

(New start) (Higher ground)

​[Bridge: Atmospheric and Soulful]

I could fall back in, I could click and see

If you’re thinking about the "perfect" version of me

But a compliment is just a spark in the dark

And I’m the one responsible for guarding my mark

I accept the mercy, I accept the grace

But I’m keeping my focus on a much higher place

(Guarding my heart) (Higher place)

​[Chorus]

You said I’m perfect in your eyes and I started to melt

The heaviest weight that I think I’ve ever felt

But I’m keeping my distance, I’m keeping my peace

Finding the strength to let the checking cease

Yeah, I’m perfect in your eyes, but I’m focused on mine

Walking this path and I’m drawing the line

(Drawing the line) (Focused)

​[Outro]

Perfect in your eyes...

But I’m better in my own.

Offline and I’m finally home.

​[Ending: Sound of a laptop closing abruptly, final high-energy synth chord fades quickly]