[In]
(Acoustic guitar loop with trap beat)
(Adlib:) Yeah.
(Adlib:) They told me "Only way is up."
(Adlib:) Well, watch this fall.
[Verse 1][Rap]
Sitting in the circle at Celebrate Recovery
Waiting for the healing, waiting for discovery.
They tell me when you hit the floor, you gotta rise
But I’m still seeing shadows when I open up my eyes.
Why do I feel like I’m spiraling down?
Just another ghost in a one-horse town.
I don't think you like me, man, let’s call a spade a spade
Even though we crossed the line and the memory was made.
You calling me a "friend" but the tone is kinda cold
I’m feeling like a story that shouldn't have been told.
(Adlib:) Kept in the dark, right?
[Chorus-Sing]
Am I at the bottom? Is this the end of the line?
Trying to find the diamond in the rough of the mine.
When will my self-worth be enough for me?
When will I see what the Good Lord sees?
(Adlib: Does He see me?!)
I keep falling down, face in the dirt
Tired of the games, yeah, tired of the hurt.
Am I at the bottom? Or am I just trash?
Waiting for the burn, waiting for the crash.
[Hook-Stomp-Clap-Chant]
Spiraling! (I’m going down!)
Spiraling! (Don't make a sound!)
Trash or Treasure? Which one is it?
Sick of buying the ticket just to miss the visit!
[Verse 2-Rap]
Check it—I was planning on staying, thought we had a vibe
But you were moving funny, trying to hide.
Should have told me you had plans, that you weren't free
Instead of wasting Friday night energy on me.
I walked into the kitchen, went to grab your juice
Looked up at the ceiling like, "Lord, what’s the use?"
(Adlib: Tell me right now!)
You were preoccupied, glued to the phone
Left me in the room feeling all alone.
Now I feel like trash, yeah, I feel cheap
Sowing all these tears that I’m gonna have to reap.
[Chorus-Sing]
Am I at the bottom? Is this the end of the line?
Trying to find the diamond in the rough of the mine.
When will my self-worth be enough for me?
When will I see what the Good Lord sees?
I keep falling down, face in the dirt
Tired of the games, yeah, tired of the hurt.
Am I at the bottom? Or am I just trash?
Waiting for the burn, waiting for the crash.
[Bridge-Vocal build]
Heard a song say: "There is freedom in the drop"
But I’m falling so fast and I don't know how to stop!
"It's okay to cry," "It's okay to fall apart"
But what happens when you never had a whole heart to start?
My brokenness is jagged, yeah, the edges are sharp
I’m trying to play the blues on a broken-string harp.
(Adlib: Watch me rise!)
I ain't trash! I’m a woman with a soul!
Trying to find a way to make the spirit whole!
[Hook-Stomp-Clap-Chant]
Spiraling! (I’m going down!)
Spiraling! (Don't make a sound!)
Trash or Treasure? Which one is it?
Sick of buying the ticket just to miss the visit!
[Outro-Spoken]
Grab the juice.
Leave the glass on the counter.
Take my pride out the door.
(Spoken:) God, take the wheel.
'Cause I can't drive this road alone.
Rock bottom road.
(Adlib:) Only way is up... I guess.
(Fade out)
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