If

If you asked me

Are you okay?

I’d tell you

I’m fine

But it’s a lie

Time to walk away

Some days are better than others

Today’s not one of those days

I wish I could truly

Explain this pain away

If I had to tell you

That I was okay

It would be a lie

I’m not sure why anyway

If I had to try

And turn this pain into something

I would fight, I would die, I would give up everything

If I could just tell you

I’m not the same

Sometimes it’s really hard

To get up and face the day

To smile through the pain

To not let these thoughts

Mess up my brain

Why won’t they go away?

If I had to tell you

That I was okay

It would be a lie

I’m not sure why anyway

If I had to try

And turn this pain into something

I would fight, I would die, I would give up everything

If I could just tell you

I’m not the same

I pretend that I’m okay

Deep down inside

The chaos spins me alive

To find myself

I have to choose

And that means that some things will lose

I’ll be fine

I’m meant to find

This out in my own way

If I had to tell you

That I was okay

It would be a lie

I’m not sure why anyway

If I had to try

And turn this pain into something

I would fight, I would die, I would give up everything

If I could just tell you

I’m not the same

One day I’ll be okay…