[Verse 1]
Jaw clenched
Knuckles white when I pass that bench
Every stare feel sharp like a rusted wrench
I hear, "End it, end it," in a hiss so drenched
In venom
Every step like I'm dragging chains
Every laugh they crack sounds like my name
Carry all this rage in a paper frame
One spark, whole soul in flames
[Pre-Chorus]
I feel that pressure in my rib cage
Like a caged dog pacing in a dim cage
If I let it out once, it's a big wave
So I bite down hard till my lips break
[Chorus]
This darkness inside, it’s clawing at my skin
I wish I could stop this evil sin
These voices in my head just twist and spin
Screaming, "Fall, fall," every time I win
This darkness inside, I’m wrestling again
Teeth on my heart, tryna drag me in
I’m standing in the storm, I won't give in
This darkness inside… won't let it win
[Verse 2]
Walk by, feel eyes on the back of my neck
Every shadow talk slick, every corner a threat
Self-hate like a pit I ain't climbed from yet
Tell me "jump," I reply, "Place your bets"
'Cause I been down bad, but I’m still upright
Hands scarred from the walls that I punched last night
I'm a live grenade with a bent pin tight
But I keep that ring between my teeth when I fight
[Pre-Chorus]
I hear that "end it" chant in surround sound
Cold sweat, hot breath, wanna sink down
But I square my stance on the same ground
Snarl back at the dark, "You ain't king now"
[Chorus]
This darkness inside, it’s clawing at my skin
I wish I could stop this evil sin
These voices in my head just twist and spin
Screaming, "Fall, fall," every time I win
This darkness inside, I’m wrestling again
Teeth on my heart, tryna drag me in
I’m standing in the storm, I won't give in
This darkness inside… won't let it win
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
You want me dead? Then come collect
Step by step, I redirect
Turn that hate to heavy reps
Lift that weight up off my chest
[Chorus]