Escaping feelings

(Verse 1)

I still dodge the truth when it gets too close

Hide your name in smoke, let the silence choke

You reach for something real, I pull back again

Say it’s easier this way if I call you friend

You look at me like you can see right through

Every lie I tell just to not want you

I keep one foot out, heart locked in defense

If I never name this love, then it never ends

(Pre-Chorus)

I know what this is

But I won’t let it live

If I blur the lines enough

Maybe I won’t have to feel it

(Chorus)

So I still escape my feelings

Still run when it gets deep

Still call you a friend

‘Cause love cuts too deep

And I know what you could be

But I can’t let you in

So I still escape my feelings

I’d rather call you friend

(Verse 2)

I keep your number close, but never too near

Talk to you at night when the dark feels clear

Say just enough to keep you hanging on

Then pull away slow before it feels too strong

You touch my soul and that’s what scares me most

How you make a stranger feel a little like home

But homes burn down and hearts don’t always mend

So I kiss your truth goodbye and call you friend

(Pre-Chorus)

I know what this is

But I won’t let it live

If I blur the lines enough

Maybe I won’t have to feel it

(Chorus)

So I still escape my feelings

Still run when it gets deep

Still call you a friend

‘Cause love cuts too deep

And I know what you could be

But I can’t let you in

So I still escape my feelings

I’d rather call you friend

(Bridge)

Maybe in another life

I’d let your love get close

Maybe if my heart was clean

I wouldn’t fear you most

But every time you reach for me

The past pulls me again

So before this turns to something real

I call you friend

(Outro)

Yeah, I still escape my feelings

Like I always did

Turn love into distance

Before it can begin

And maybe it’s cruel

But it’s safer in the end

To still escape my feelings

And rather call you friend