[Verse 1]
I put my name on the rent
then watched it fade with the month
Same hoodie, same old steps
but I ain’t the same as I was
Mama said, "Boy, keep your head up"
I laughed like that fixed the frame
But the sink full of plates don't lie
and my phone full of missed-up names
I keep my hurt in a box
under the bed with the screws
If I open it up too long
I swear the whole room bruises
I been strong for the crowd
been broke in the quiet part
Smile on my face like a mask
while the real me fell apart
[Pre-Chorus]
Tell me how long
can a heart hold smoke?
Tell me how long
till the last thread goes?
[Chorus]
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
I wear it like rain
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
but I say I’m okay
(Okay, okay)
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
don’t ask me to stay
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
I been folding in pain
[Verse 2]
Lost my brother to the system
lost my cousin to the block
Lost a piece of me at sixteen
when the doctor said "it’s not"
I still see my old man
with his hands on the wheel
Not talking, just driving
like silence was real
And I learned that a meal in the fridge
can still taste like grief
When the house too quiet at night
and the floorboards breathe
I been that kid in the doorway
waiting for somebody home
Now I’m grown and the same ache
still got my bones on loan
[Pre-Chorus]
Tell me how long
can a heart hold smoke?
Tell me how long
till the last thread goes?
[Chorus]
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
I wear it like rain
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
but I say I’m okay
(Okay, okay)
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
don’t ask me to stay
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
I been folding in pain
[Bridge]
If I crack, don’t call it weakness
I just ran out of room
Every "I’m fine" I ever sold
came back with the blues
I been praying with my teeth clenched
knuckles white on the sink
If you see me look past you
I’m just trying not to sink
[Final Chorus]
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
I wear it like rain
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
but I say I’m okay
(Okay, okay)
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
still standing in place
I’m heavy, I’m heavy
but I’m learning my pain