“Echoes of My darkened Soul”

Broken promises, echoes of my past,

Self-doubt whispers in the dark,

Treated myself with disrespect,

Scars left by hearts I trusted too much.

I’ve been unfair, let others steer my course,

Talked out of dreams that once burned bright,

Victim of my own doubts,

As I stand here,questioning my worth.

Father’s death, a weight I must bear,

Fighting for my son’s and daughters, a battle I must win,

Cultish judgment, a disfigured view,

Family torn apart, love left to decay.

Narcissistic minds of the past, judging from afar,

Soulless hell I must pay,a twisted view of worth,

Priesthood holders, pride in their eyes,

Dismissing my soul, denying my rise.

I’ve been made primary, yet feel so lost,

Support battles, a system that’s crossed,

The struggles of doubt, a legal fight I must win,

For my children, I’ll stand strong, though the odds are tough.

Father’s death, a weight I must bear,

Fighting for my children, a battle I must win,

Cultish judgment, a disfigured view,

Family torn apart, love left to decay.

Hell of darkness turned entrepreneur of life,

Building a life, chasing a dream,

Three marriages torn apart by greedy lies of lust,

A fiancé, an angel I never knew existed, her beacon of light only shined at times of suicidal eternity, she gives me liberty, a freedom I never knew of, a love so deep, she’s the phoenix of my heart, A family growing, yet shadows still remain.

Losses have pile up, a darkened soul in pain,

Best friends gone to young, to war and disease,

Mother’s heartaches of loss, father’s affairs,

A childhood scarred, a heart that wears on.

I’ve put too many in hands of blackened eternal bags, awaits the echo noise of zipping of my mother’s eyes, as i have so many, a sorrowful heart for those laid into my arms of death, my eyes being last soul seen on this earth, the cross over of

A young burden of death, a soul that won’t be dismissed,

Questions of my worth, a darkened soul in quest,

For meaning, for love, for a life I can trust.

Father’s death, a weight I must bear,

Fighting for my children, a battle I must win,

Cultish judgment, a disfigured view,

Family torn apart, love left to decay.

Echoes of my darkened soul, a song of pain,

Seeking healing, a light to contain,

Through the struggles, I’ll rise again,For ones not here no more.