Cage in the Kitchen

I stare in the mirror, don’t know who I see

Lost in my head, wish that I could be free

Counting every calorie, it’s controlling me

Feeding the fire, but it’s burning me

Tears on my pillow, but I can’t cry

I don’t wanna eat, but I don’t wanna die

Chasing the silence, don’t know where to hide

I keep getting smaller, but I don’t feel alive

I’m fading, but they don’t know

Thought I’d be happy when I let it go

But the scars run deeper than the weight I show

I’m trapped in this body, don’t wanna grow

I’m fading, but they don’t see

I smile like I’m fine, but I’m drowning in me

Every bite’s a battle, it’s so hard to breathe

I’m lost in my mind, don’t know what to believe

I write down my pain, but it never fades

In the kitchen, I feel like I’m in a cage

All these voices inside, telling me to change

I’m stuck in the loop, it’s so hard to escape

I’m feeling empty, but I’m so full

I keep starving for something I can’t pull

I hate the reflection, I can’t find the cure

The mirror’s my enemy, nothing feels pure

I’m fading, but they don’t know

Thought I’d be happy when I let it go

But the scars run deeper than the weight I show

I’m trapped in this body, don’t wanna grow

I’m fading, but they don’t see

I smile like I’m fine, but I’m drowning in me

Every bite’s a battle, it’s so hard to breathe

I’m lost in my mind, don’t know what to believe

I’m trying to fight, but I don’t feel strong

Feels like I’ve been losing for way too long

I’m stuck in this pattern, I don’t belong

But I keep moving on, pretending I’m wrong

I’m fading, but they don’t know

Thought I’d be happy when I let it go

But the scars run deeper than the weight I show

I’m trapped in this body, don’t wanna grow

I’m fading, but they don’t see

I smile like I’m fine, but I’m drowning in me

Every bite’s a battle, it’s so hard to breathe

I’m lost in my mind, don’t know what to believe

I’m fading away, don’t know if I’m real

I’m drowning inside, but I can’t feel

Maybe one day, I’ll heal

But for now, I’m lost in the meal.