Even If

It’s nerve-wracking,
Mind-attacking,
Always confusing,
Sometimes bruising—
this feeling for you I keep refusing.

I’m curious, shy, and spinning inside,
Why you of all, when I tried to hide?
Out of the crowd, it’s you I see,
Just one glance, and you undo me.

I thought it was nothing, just passing by,
A fleeting crush, a harmless high.
But now it grows, I lose control—
You’ve slowly taken my heart whole.

I don't want hope, yet crave your face.
I fear the pain, yet seek your trace.
I don’t know what’s wrong or right,
But you’re the thought I hold at night.

Though this love may feel unwise,
And tears may fall behind these eyes—
If you’re the cause of all this ache,
Then it's a risk I'm fine to take.

Even if it’s not allowed,
Even if it’s lost in cloud,
Even if I should forget—
You’re the one I can’t regret.

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