Catastrophe in the Void

I’ve become so aimless
As I venture into the void 
I don’t know how to face this 
Asteroids are hard to avoid 

I try to navigate the field 
I lost my defense shield 
And I’m losing control 
My life is something I hold 

My life is something I hold
My life is the only thing I hold 

Truth is that’s something that scares me 
Like I’m gonna cause my catastrophe 
Blow up the most chaotic way 
For the sad and the pent up years of rage 
Loneliness has my number 
This void I can not cover 
I thought I was doing just fine 
But to my depression I’m blind 

I’ve become so shameless 
Fake smiles but I’m paranoid 
I can only rely on me 
And that’s the thing that scares me 

My life is something I hold
My life is the only thing I hold 

Truth is that’s something that scares me 
Like I’m gonna cause my catastrophe 
Blow up the most chaotic way 
For the sad and the pent up years of rage 
Loneliness has my number 
This void I can not cover 
I thought I was doing just fine 
But to my depression I’m blind 

Why has my fate lead to this? 
Confined to everything that I miss 
Why can’t I just live in the now 
What is this life that I found? 

I’ve become a new man 
But now I can barely stand 
To go another day 
Pretending I’m okay 

Truth is that’s something that scares me 
Like I’m gonna cause my catastrophe 
Blow up the most chaotic way 
For the sad and the pent up years of rage 
Loneliness has my number 
This void I can not cover 
I thought I was doing just fine 
But to my depression I’m blind 

Metalcore