I awake with a heavy heart thinking about where and when I went wrong. Fighting the urge to give up the fight all the trauma is blinding my sight. All I see is the pain that I feel, wishing and praying that God will heal. My heart is heavy as I realize the truth. If only I had another chance. Would I choose the love from my past. As I remember the lessons from long ago gaining strength to stand strong is all I know. I find myself reflecting on all the hurt trying to stay focused on the masters plan. Whatever he wants I’ll support. Seems like life is a struggle to stand faithful with all the negative thoughts and spiritual attacks trying to confuse our minds making us believe lies from the evil one. I cry out to God for guidance and peace through the darkness that I can’t speak, still hurting and tears in my eyes. My heart is broken as I realize I have to walk away in order to survive. The truth is a hard pill to swallow but I think God for showing me the truth of the others plots and evil hearts. They counted me out, plotted against me, allowing the enemy to keep us apart. I finally decided to walk away, I needed my peace for a better day. I’m taking my life back in my hands and following guidance from the spiritual realm. As I continue seeking guidance from above,my path will be made straight. I’ll learn to live life as designed by the master of all. The peace I seek will remain as time goes by, healing me, mentally and spiritually. No more tears shall fall, heart aches gone broken no more. Walked away from what was destroying me, tearing me down wanting to break me, not knowing I was stronger than they believed. No peace for them wrapped in lies truth will unfold exposing it in time. My hands are clean no blood I shed, just prayers to God for all to heal. Living a life in the peace I seek..,,in the peace I seek………..