Lost You Anyway

We had a little white house picked out on that hill

You talked ‘bout babies, I just stood still

I was too scared of forever to see

That you were everything I’d ever need

You packed your bags, said you’d had enough

And I didn’t fight, I thought love was tough

But now it’s midnight, and I’m drunk and alone

Staring at pictures we used to call home

I don’t wanna lose you, but I already did

You were my heaven, I was just a scared kid

I had the world and a woman so true

But I let my demons make me lie to you

Now I’m haunted by your ghost in every song I play

I don’t wanna lose you… but I lost you anyway

You used to dance barefoot in my old T-shirt

Now it’s folded in the drawer and it still hurts

I hear your voice in the morning rain

And feel you slip through my hands again

You believed in the man I could’ve been

And I threw it all away like a careless sin

Every “I love you” I never said

Plays on repeat in my broken head

I don’t wanna lose you, but I already did

You were my shelter when I couldn’t admit

That love don’t fix what pride can break

And I lit the match on my own heartache

Now I’m stuck in the silence of the price I pay

I don’t wanna lose you… but I lost you anyway

Maybe someday you’ll hear this tune

And remember the man who lost you too soon

If you ever wonder if I still care

I swear I’d trade it all just to have you there

I don’t wanna lose you, I never did

You were my always, and I was just a stupid kid

Now I drive past that hill with the house we drew

And it’s just me and the ghost of you

I’d give forever for one more yesterday

I don’t wanna lose you…

But I lost you anyway