"Two Anchors in the Storm"

I’ve lost too many shadows, they slip right through my hands,

Ghosts of what I wanted, scattered in the sand.

The weight of all that leaving, it carves into my bones,

Trauma’s like a whisper, it won’t leave me alone.

Mom and Dad were wildfires, burning hot and cold,

Bipolar tides I rode on, stories never told.

A kid caught in the crossfire, dodging every scream,

Love was loud and fragile, splitting at the seam.

And I try to be kind, wear a smile like a crown,

But it’s hard when I’m sinking, feel like I’m gonna drown.

Not good enough, not worthy, echoes in my head,

Being nice stabs my heart dry, leaves me feeling dead.

Two men stand beside me, hold me tight and strong,

A brother and a lover, steady all along.

My brother’s like a fortress, walls I lean upon,

He’s seen me at my darkest, still he won’t be gone.

The other’s got a promise, a hope I’m scared to hold,

A future husband maybe, if I dare to be so bold.

They catch my falling pieces, every tear I’ve cried,

But I hate how I burden them, trauma’s heavy tide.

I cry myself to sleep at night, overthinking every breath,

Depression wraps me tightly, flirting close with death.

My mind’s a maze of questions, a loop I can’t unwind,

A knife twists in my heart when kindness leaves me blind.

I go out in the world, give all I’ve got to share,

But I’m a ghost, nonexistent, no one sees me there.

Cheated on and shattered, hearts I trusted broke,

Pieces on the floor I swept, beneath the lies they spoke.

So many hands that hurt me, left me torn apart,

Fragments I couldn’t gather, till he mended up my heart.

A threat came like a shadow, words that cut too deep,

Trauma’s now a scar I wear, a fear I can’t unkeep.

And I try to be kind, wear a smile like a crown,

But it’s hard when I’m sinking, feel like I’m gonna drown.

Not good enough, not worthy, echoes in my head,

Being nice stabs my heart dry, leaves me feeling dead.

Two men stand beside me, hold me tight and strong,

A brother and a lover, steady all along.

I’m sorry for the weight I dump, the storms I make them bear,

I’m a hurricane of memories, a burden hard to share.

They hold me when I’m breaking, arms around me tight,

Keep me from the edge when I’m lost in endless night.

Betrayal carved me hollow, threats still haunt my dreams,

Church can’t stitch me whole, I’m fraying at the seams.

And I try to be kind, wear a smile like a crown,

But it’s hard when I’m sinking, feel like I’m gonna drown.

Not good enough, not worthy, echoes in my head,

Being nice stabs my heart dry, leaves me feeling dead.

Two men stand beside me, hold me tight and strong,

A brother and a lover, steady all along.

Two anchors in the chaos, they keep me from the deep,

Holding me through tears when I cry myself to sleep.

Loss and love and heartbreak, threats that linger near,

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