Heart ache

I'm heavily self medicated. I have tried to heal and meditate on this heart ache hoping it will pass. This break is breaking me down. Swimming in the liquor to accept the loss of my forever. I should have known better that your love would leave a bitter taste in my mouth. The power your the touch of your lips had on me. I was I could say it doesn't exist anymore but that would be a lie. I only see that great smile in my mind's eye. Each day that passes by only solidifies. The insanity I have now I wake-up with sweat on my brow. From dreaming of losing you. I wish there was a remedy for this heart ache. Waking up to an empty bed is breaking me. It killed me hearing the love we once had is dead. When we went our separate ways I felt a blade run through my heart. Does this pain ever fade. I wake-up in cold sweat calling your nnnaaammmmeee. I wish you stttaaaaayed the paaaiiinnn is toooo much for me to handle. Maakiing me go pedal to the metaall. Drinking shot after Shot even apart you eat up my check. You witch yes you casted a spell only reason I fell this hard. I feel like I am being torn apart by some hellhounds. I don't know how to forget you trying to free myself from this hell. Asking the Looorrdd for help. To soooothh this heart ache.