Always Second Best

[Verse 1]
Woke up with that same old ache
Reaching for what gets me through 
But my hands still shake
Scroll through faces
None of them stay
Always the almost
Never the one they save
Taught myself to leave first
Then care
Laugh it off like there’s nothing there
But every joke feels thin and frayed
I’m the quiet shadow
In all the pictures they frame
[Chorus]
I’m so tired of being second best to the ghost in your head
Can’t compete with what you lost or the words you never said
If love is just a war I lose
I’m laying down my arms instead
I just want to find peace
I just want find a quiet place inside my head
Yeah
I just want find love before I'm dead
[Verse 2]
Friends say “you’ll find someone new”
They don’t see the wreck I crawl through
Nights stack up like empty cans
Ringing in my ears
From all the almost-plans
Maybe I was made to stand aside
Hold the door while you walk inside
But somewhere under all this rust
There’s a heart that still remembers
How to trust
[Chorus]
I’m so tired of being second best to the ghost in your head
Can’t compete with what you lost or the words you never said
If love is just a war I lose
I’m laying down my arms instead
I just want to find peace
I just want find a quiet place inside my head
Yeah
I just want find love before I'm dead
[Bridge]
All alone in a crowded room
Every laugh just proves the wound
How much more can silence take?
How much more before I break?
I don’t need a perfect pair
Just a calm place in this stare 
Someone who can look and see
I’m not a backup plan
I’m just a man ..... trying to breathe
[Chorus]
I’m so tired of being second best to the ghost in your head
Can’t compete with what you lost or the words you never said
If love is just a war I lose
I’m laying down my arms instead
I just want to find peace
I just want find a quiet place inside my head
Yeah
I just want find love before I'm dead

Rock, Metal, Grunge with heavy distorted guitars driving drum beats, Raw Melancholic male Echoing vocals, rock harmonys