Always Second Best

Woke up with that same old ache

Reaching for what gets me through

But my hands still shake

Scroll through faces

None of them stay

Always the almost

Never the one they save

Taught myself to leave first

Then care

Laugh it off like there’s nothing there

But every joke feels thin and frayed

I’m the quiet shadow

In all the pictures they frame

I’m so tired of being second best to the ghost in your head

Can’t compete with what you lost or the words you never said

If love is just a war I lose

I’m laying down my arms instead

I just want to find peace

I just want find a quiet place inside my head

Yeah

I just want find love before I'm dead

Friends say “you’ll find someone new”

They don’t see the wreck I crawl through

Nights stack up like empty cans

Ringing in my ears

From all the almost-plans

Maybe I was made to stand aside

Hold the door while you walk inside

But somewhere under all this rust

There’s a heart that still remembers

How to trust

I’m so tired of being second best to the ghost in your head

Can’t compete with what you lost or the words you never said

If love is just a war I lose

I’m laying down my arms instead

I just want to find peace

I just want find a quiet place inside my head

Yeah

I just want find love before I'm dead

All alone in a crowded room

Every laugh just proves the wound

How much more can silence take?

How much more before I break?

I don’t need a perfect pair

Just a calm place in this stare

Someone who can look and see

I’m not a backup plan

I’m just a man ..... trying to breathe

I’m so tired of being second best to the ghost in your head

Can’t compete with what you lost or the words you never said

If love is just a war I lose

I’m laying down my arms instead

I just want to find peace

I just want find a quiet place inside my head

Yeah

I just want find love before I'm dead