[Verse 1]
I line my life up
Little rows across the floor
You call it strange
I call it breathing
I’m keeping count to keep from war
I feel the room like weather
Hear your mood behind each word
You say I’m “too much
Too intense”
I say I’m finally heard
[Chorus]
You don’t know what it’s like
Living loud inside a quiet world
Heart on high
In a low-key life
Trying to be small when my colors swirl
We love
We help
We bleed
Still you ask us not to be
Who God stitched into our minds
You don’t know what it’s like
[Verse 2]
I memorize your coffee
So you never have to ask
I’m the first to show up helping
Last to ever drop the mask
You praise me when I fake it
Call it “growth” when I comply
But every step away from me
Feels like teaching me to lie
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
I’m not broken
I’m specific
I’m not wrong
I’m wired bright
I’m not “better” when I’m hiding
Just more palatable to your sight
[build]
God didn’t make a backup version
There’s no “fix it
Make it right”
I’m a temple with a busy altar
I’m a lantern in the night
[Chorus]