Sometimes I want the world to feel free. I just wanna be free like I’m in space going around like there’s no type of sadness in my body my body floating around like the stars in the moon no Care no Care in the world.
Gravity feels so real on earth when you have depression or your manic everything around you feels like it’s drowning you into a panic don’t worry I got my mask to hide my face so we won’t inconvenience you. I get that life is not fair. I get it. It’s not fair, but I just want the kindness and happiness that others have That I don’t get to feel now I shouldn’t say I’m jealous, but I really feel so jealous every time someone smiles or someone gets a hug cause no one wants to be around me when I’m dying inside when I try to open up everyone says I’m crazy because I stabbed myself when I was 21. They say don’t cross her she’s crazy. She’s crazy when all I wanted was to be loved. I didn’t get that when I was young. All I got was hate and rage and rape. That’s what I got in return for everything that I did that I thought was right sometimes I want the world to feel free I want to to be free like I’m in space going around like there’s no type of sadness in my body my body floating around like the stars and moon no care no care in the world. Sometimes I feel like Blue’s Clues questioning everything in my life and I try to find the answer, but I just can’t. I hate myself too much to even try to explain why I hate myself. Suicide is on my mind 24 seven close my eyes and I even dream of it back then if I just went a little bit deeper, everything just would’ve went black I wouldn’t be a creeper trying to keep my head from blowing up blowing up with these emotions. I’m trying to keep it down with a mask. I got on this Mask in my mind talking to my therapist told me I’m crazy next thing I know he’s trying to give me pills to get rid of all my sanity took one then took two lost everything around me became like Alice in the Wonderland chasing the rabbit trying to chase her innocence. Sometimes I want the world to feel free. I just wanna be free like I’m in space going around like there’s no type of sadness in my body, my body floating around like the stars in the moon no Care no Care in the world
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