I've lived this life...but now I'm living

I have lived this life and it hasn't been worth living

Dealing with addiction for 20 long years and all the hustling rarely was me taking it seemed always was giving

Back to the hood the streets the dealers and the people

That I try to show respect and teach to be loyal

Instead I find my life chaotic and In turmoil God has spoken and told me some things first off that this life I was given and been living is even worthy of being forgiven

I sit alone most days most nights.now

Trying to find the way out of this place and the only thing I know is bending a knee and pray

Oh father I have ran the streets and made my way waisting what seems best part of my life away but if given the chance for one more day I beg that you see me through yet one more day giving me the strength to turn away and bless me father and let me live just one more day . To celebrate freedom wisdom and truth true love for you and all this world and let me shout the name of my lord and praise him and celebrate for all to see .he can surely save you if he just saved me ...truth and faith go hand and hand and my lord thank you for making finally me a MAN amen hallelujah and thank you Jesus and our almighty lord