State Of Mind

Can't find the frequency... brain's on scan mode.

3AM and the ceiling's got me in a stare down,

Thoughts racin' faster than my heart can slow down.

That text I sent at noon, did it sound too desperate?

Now I'm dissectin' every word like it's a crime scene evidence.

Notifications buzzin' like bees in my brain,

Every "what if" turnin' into a hurricane.

Can't focus on the now, future's a blur of dread,

Past mistakes on replay, fillin' up my head.

Breath comin' shallow, chest feelin' like a vice,

Mind's a prison cell and I lost the keys twice.

This state of mind... I'm losin' it, this state of mind,

Can't find the station, static's all I find.

I just wanna turn it off, but the dial's stuck on high,

Mind's a battlefield and I'm watchin' myself die.

(Yeah... state of mind...)

Tried countin' sheep but they turned into worst-case scenes,

That conversation from last week, now it's hauntin' my dreams.

Did I say the wrong thing? Did my tone give me away?

Now I'm spiralin' deeper, can't see the light of day.

Body's tired but my mind's runnin' a marathon,

Sweat on my pillow, heart beatin' like a gun.

Can't tell if I'm awake or stuck in a nightmare loop,

Every shadow in the room looks like it's out to get me, truth.

I scream into the pillow but the silence screams back louder,

This anxiety's a monster, and it's gettin' prouder.

Maybe if I just... no, that thought's another trap,

I'm tired of fightin' shadows, tired of this mental scrap.

State of mind... still trapped in this state of mind,

Static gettin' louder, can't press pause or rewind.

I just wanna breathe without the weight on my chest,

But the radio's broken, and I'm failin' the test.

(Oh... state of mind...)

Static...

Just static.

Can't change the station.