[Verse 1]
Same cup
Same corner of the couch
Phone face down
Friends say I’m fading out
I laugh it off
Say I’m fine, I’m just tired
But my tongue tastes truth
And my hands feel wired
[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve been waking up shaking
Heart racing, mind vacant
Who is this girl in the mirror
Eyes bigger, soul vacant
I say I’ll stop by Sunday
Then I’m gone by Sunday night
Praying in the bathroom
Under ugly yellow lights (yeah)
[Chorus]
I go high, then I fall so low
Back and forth with my demons, I know
I’m addicted to the hurt, to the slow let go
I ain’t myself anymore, and it shows
God, are You there when the room starts to spin?
I’m drowning in a bottle I’m sleeping in
I’m scared of the dark, but I run right in
High then low, I keep losing, You keep calling me again
[Verse 2]
Smile sharp
But my spirit’s full of cracks
Laugh too loud
So they never see the past
Family text
“Baby, we just wanna talk”
I leave ’em on read
Then I pour another shot
[Pre-Chorus]
All this stress on my chest
Like a hand I can’t move
I’m angry at myself
But I got nothing to prove
Some nights I feel happy
For a minute, then I crash
Fear creeping in
When the glass hits the glass (clink)
[Chorus]
I go high, then I fall so low
Back and forth with my demons, I know
I’m addicted to the hurt, to the slow let go
I ain’t myself anymore, and it shows
God, are You there when the room starts to spin?
I’m drowning in a bottle I’m sleeping in
I’m scared of the dark, but I run right in
High then low, I keep losing, You keep calling me again
[Bridge]
I’ve yelled at the sky till my voice went weak
Cursed Your name ’cause I couldn’t breathe
But when I hit the floor and I couldn’t stand
I felt something hold my shaking hands (oh)
Anger, sadness, fear, they fight
But a small soft voice cuts through the night
“Daughter, you’re more than this empty glass”
One deep breath, let the moment pass
[Chorus]
I go high, then I fall so low
Back and forth with my demons, I know
I’m addicted to the hurt, to the slow let go
I ain’t myself anymore, and it shows
God, are You there when the room starts to spin?
I’m drowning in a bottle I’m sleeping in
I’m scared of the dark, but I want to live
High then low, I keep falling, You keep pulling me back in (yeah)