(Intro - long piano and soft synth build-up)
**Verse 1**
I wake up already losing
Before my feet hit the floor
The mirror doesn’t even judge me
It knows I’ve been here before
Your voice is stuck in the walls
Begging me not to disappear
But I’ve been gone for a long time
I just still look like I’m here
**Pre-Chorus**
I swear I tried to feel the fear
But even fear won’t stay anymore
**Chorus**
You loved me sober
I buried that man alive
I traded days for the night
Just to make it through the night
I rot in plain sight
I lie through my teeth
I know I’m the reason
You can’t sleep
You loved me sober
That’s what makes this hurt
I didn’t lose you to death
I lost you to worse
**Verse 2**
I’ve memorized every excuse
Every look that says “not again”
You don’t ask if I’m okay now
You just ask when it ends
I feel it crawling in my chest
Like it owns me, like it’s earned it
Every bridge I swore I’d burn last
I rebuilt just to torch it
**Pre-Chorus**
I don’t fight it when it calls my name
I just answer and accept the blame
**Chorus**
You loved me sober
I poisoned that trust
You believed in a future
I turned into dust
I rot in plain sight
I fade every day
I swear I see relief
When you turn away
You loved me sober
Now you mourn me slow
I’m not dead
But I’m not someone you know
**Bridge**
(stripped, empty)
If this is rock bottom
Then why does it feel like home?
If I wanted to get better
I wouldn’t be so alone
(building, bitter)
I don’t dream about recovery
I just dream about relief
Five minutes without my skin
Crawling out of me
**Break / Half-Time**
I keep waiting for a reason
Something strong enough to stay
But love feels small next to the need
And I hate myself for saying that
**Final Chorus**
You loved me sober
I couldn’t love me at all
I watched you get smaller
Every time I’d fall
I drained your hope
I learned your pain
I taught you how
To walk away
You loved me sober
Please don’t come back
There’s nothing left to save
And I won’t survive the act
**Outro**
If you hear this when I’m gone
Don’t call it a fight I lost
I stopped fighting a long time ago
This is just the cost
I was loved once.
That wasn’t enough.
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