[Intro – soft, dreamy but broken]
I don’t wanna die yet…
But some nights it feels like the past won’t let me live.
Yeah…
I’m comin’ down again.
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[Verse 1 – blended from Family Line]
My father never talked a lot,
Just walked the block ’til all the anger locked him up
And then he’d hit.
My mother never cried a lot,
Took the punches, swallowed shock,
Until she whispered, “I’m leavin’, I’ll take the kids.”
So she did.
And I say they’re just the ones who gave me life,
But deep inside I know I’m still their child.
All these pieces that don’t fit right —
Still stitched into my smile.
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[Pre-Chorus – alt-pop melody / heavier drums fading in]
Scattered ’cross my family line,
I’m so good at telling lies —
That came from my mother’s side,
Said a million to survive.
God, I have my father’s eyes,
But my sister’s when I cry…
I can run, but I can’t hide
From my family line.
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[Chorus – mixing in “I don’t wanna die yet”]
I don’t wanna die yet,
But lonely roads pull victims from the soul.
I don’t wanna starve again,
Already lost in my head — I’m losin’ control.
I’m comin’ down, comin’ down,
Tryna breathe through the trauma somehow.
Family line on my back like a ghost in the house —
And I’m comin’ down…
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[Verse 2 – emotional, blending themes]
It’s hard to put it into words,
How holidays still fucking hurt.
Watchin’ fathers spin their daughters in the snow —
And wonder what I did to deserve
Growing up with bruised trust
And hands that never learned love.
How could you hurt a little kid?
Now I flinch when people leave,
And I fear they always will.
But every scar I try to clean
Just bleeds out memories I didn’t choose —
Someone who loves you wouldn’t do this.
I was young, but not clueless.
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[Bridge – soft, whispered, dreamy trap instrumental]
Lost in a dream…
Ask me if you need me —
Would you leave me?
We all speak when it’s easy.
Time goes by… I try…
To keep advancing.
Pay no mind… but still
I feel abandoned.
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[Chorus 2 – heavier drop, emotional release]
I don’t wanna die yet,
Lonely roads carve victims in the soul.
I don’t wanna starve again,
Already drowning in my head — losing control.
I’m comin’ down, comin’ down,
Still reaching out though you ain’t around.
Family ghosts in my blood, in my voice, in my sound —
And I’m comin’ down…
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[New Added Verse – original, ties the stories together]
Oh, all that I did just to try and undo it,
All of my pain and all your excuses —
I tried to erase it, tried to outrun it,
But maybe the truth is you helped me become this.
Share a face, share a name —
But we are not the same.
I broke the cycle you made,
Still carry weight but I ain’t chained.
I’m healing in slow frames,
Still haunted by your old ways,
But every time I fall apart
I build a better part to replace.
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[Final Chorus – fading, layered vocals]
I don’t wanna die yet…
Lonely roads lead deeper in the soul.
I don’t wanna starve again…
But broken childhoods always take a toll.
Scattered ’cross my family line….