Verse 1
I sat down in that chair like a courtroom stand
Waiting on a verdict I didn’t understand
He said, “Tell me how you feel,” I almost laughed
A lifetime of silence don’t come out that fast
Thought there was a motive behind those eyes
Like he was digging for a place I hide
I said, “I’m fine,” like I always do
That lie’s worn thin but it gets me through
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Pre-Chorus
I built these walls with steady hands
Brick by brick, just to withstand
Anything that tried to get in
But even stone begins to bend
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Chorus
Thirty-two years I carried this weight
Every locked door, every buried pain
I thought holding on made me strong
But I was breaking all along
Now the truth don’t feel like defeat
It feels like chains falling off of me
I’m learning healing ain’t weak
It’s finally letting myself speak
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Verse 2
There’s ghosts in rooms I don’t walk through
Memories burned in a darker hue
I wore survival like a second skin
Didn’t know where I stopped and it began
Trust don’t come like a pouring rain
It falls one drop at a time through pain
But I feel something shifting inside
Like maybe I don’t have to hide
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Pre-Chorus
He said, “You don’t have to carry it alone”
I didn’t believe it, but I wrote it down
Maybe strength ain’t standing tall
Maybe it’s letting yourself break down
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Chorus
Thirty-two years I carried this weight
Every locked door, every buried pain
I thought holding on made me strong
But I was breaking all along
Now the truth don’t feel like defeat
It feels like chains falling off of me
I’m learning healing ain’t weak
It’s finally letting myself speak
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Rap Section (Dark, stripped beat)
I spent decades saying “I’m good,” knowing I wasn’t
Built an identity around not becoming something
My anger was armor, my silence was safety
My past tried to kill me but it also made me
I don’t cry easy, I don’t trust fast
I still flinch when I revisit my past
But sitting in that chair, saying words out loud
Felt like standing naked in front of a crowd
Every memory heavy, every scar got roots
Every version of me still living in truth
I thought control meant bury it deep
But control is admitting what you couldn’t keep
Now I’m learning myself, layer by layer
Speaking to demons I thought would stay there
Maybe healing ain’t fixing what broke apart
Maybe healing is meeting your own damn heart
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Final Chorus
Thirty-two years I carried this weight
Every locked door, every buried pain
But I feel something different now
I don’t have to wear that crown
The truth don’t feel like defeat
It feels like breathing finally free
My heart ain’t who I used to be
It’s healing
Piece by piece
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Outro
I still don’t have all the answers
But I finally asked the questions
And that’s enough
For now.
PisceanLedger
