View from the Chair

Verse 1

I sat down in that chair like a courtroom stand

Waiting on a verdict I didn’t understand

He said, “Tell me how you feel,” I almost laughed

A lifetime of silence don’t come out that fast

Thought there was a motive behind those eyes

Like he was digging for a place I hide

I said, “I’m fine,” like I always do

That lie’s worn thin but it gets me through

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Pre-Chorus

I built these walls with steady hands

Brick by brick, just to withstand

Anything that tried to get in

But even stone begins to bend

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Chorus

Thirty-two years I carried this weight

Every locked door, every buried pain

I thought holding on made me strong

But I was breaking all along

Now the truth don’t feel like defeat

It feels like chains falling off of me

I’m learning healing ain’t weak

It’s finally letting myself speak

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Verse 2

There’s ghosts in rooms I don’t walk through

Memories burned in a darker hue

I wore survival like a second skin

Didn’t know where I stopped and it began

Trust don’t come like a pouring rain

It falls one drop at a time through pain

But I feel something shifting inside

Like maybe I don’t have to hide

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Pre-Chorus

He said, “You don’t have to carry it alone”

I didn’t believe it, but I wrote it down

Maybe strength ain’t standing tall

Maybe it’s letting yourself break down

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Chorus

Thirty-two years I carried this weight

Every locked door, every buried pain

I thought holding on made me strong

But I was breaking all along

Now the truth don’t feel like defeat

It feels like chains falling off of me

I’m learning healing ain’t weak

It’s finally letting myself speak

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Rap Section (Dark, stripped beat)

I spent decades saying “I’m good,” knowing I wasn’t

Built an identity around not becoming something

My anger was armor, my silence was safety

My past tried to kill me but it also made me

I don’t cry easy, I don’t trust fast

I still flinch when I revisit my past

But sitting in that chair, saying words out loud

Felt like standing naked in front of a crowd

Every memory heavy, every scar got roots

Every version of me still living in truth

I thought control meant bury it deep

But control is admitting what you couldn’t keep

Now I’m learning myself, layer by layer

Speaking to demons I thought would stay there

Maybe healing ain’t fixing what broke apart

Maybe healing is meeting your own damn heart

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Final Chorus

Thirty-two years I carried this weight

Every locked door, every buried pain

But I feel something different now

I don’t have to wear that crown

The truth don’t feel like defeat

It feels like breathing finally free

My heart ain’t who I used to be

It’s healing

Piece by piece

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Outro

I still don’t have all the answers

But I finally asked the questions

And that’s enough

For now.