I, (find myself)

I find myself

between the space of my thoughts

a silent observer

of the next sequence

or not

I find myself

in that silence

that screams

and has its own life

in my dreams

was I born just yesterday

or a thousand years ago

like a needle skipping

on a record

no one knows

is this my reality

or someone else I ask

and what manifests

a future with no past

perhaps this is the real me

lost within this space

or a cork out in the ocean

floating into space

like too many movie reels

that I'm left to observe

and substitute for my own life

I know it seems absurd

but here I find myself

not quite behind the veil

not in the cradle

nor the grave

not free

but not a slave

I pray to God

as I've been taught to do

I'm in between

the animals in his zoo

and I'm that ghost

that's haunting every space

I find myself

with eyes that see

without a face

I find myself

now and then when I'm with you

in those precious silent moments

far apart and few

I find myself

in a sea of characters that play their role

am I just playing one?

I'll

never

know.