Directionless

Lowkey been feeling like I got no where to go…mentally spiraling tryna figure life out…dropping out of school when I felt overwhelmed…going to no one for my problems…realizing since then asking for help wasn’t my strong suit anyway…knowing everyone says “communication is key” but could barely speak…even if my actions caused mistakes…I realize no one is perfect…hoping I acknowledge my efforts and move on…becoming my own man, having no father…but even If I know why and accepted it…it still messes with my head sometimes…even if I barely knew him.

But I’m thankful for my mother, knowing i wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for her…choosing to raise me to be the young man I’m trying to be…though words says otherwise and can mean anything…it’s not how I feel inside…showing you through actions that I love you, knowing what u been through…even if we barely say it to each other.

So at the end of the day…this is why I write my feelings down rather then speaking…knowing apologizing can’t make up for my actions…I’ll take take accountability as I move on…becoming the man I want to be…no matter what people think.