[Verse 1]
Met you laughing in that crowded room
You said my shirt was "kinda cool"
I felt my chest flicker like a fuse
You just passed through
Talking ‘bout girls that broke your trust
I tried to hide the way I blushed
Changing the subject when it hurt too much
Tight smile
Rough truth
[Pre-Chorus]
You say
"You're my brother
You're my guy"
But my hands keep drawing constellations on your spine in my mind
You crash on my couch
Breathing slow in your sleep
I lie awake
Begging this feeling to leave
[Chorus]
Straight boy fantasy
You’re the one thing I can’t be
Your hand on my shoulder
Feels like a promise you don’t mean
Straight boy fantasy
You’re talking love like I can’t hear
Every word a knife that sings
I wish you wanted me
My dear
[Verse 2]
You ask me
"Why you never chase?"
I bite my tongue
Still taste your name
You say
"If I were into guys
You'd be the first"
Then laugh it off like a harmless joke that doesn’t burn
You pull me in for another side hug
Your cologne on my hoodie when I get up
You call me "safe
" say I'm the only one you trust
I'm drowning quietly
Trying not to touch
[Pre-Chorus]
Your head on my shoulder on the last train home
You ramble about forever with some girl on your phone
You say
"I love you
Man
" then you close your eyes
I whisper it back
But it’s a different line
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
I’m tired of loving in parentheses
Of hiding whole novels in between our memories
You’re scared of losing me
I’m scared of staying
Is this friendship
Or am I just praying?
I mute my heart so you can sleep
Turn the bass up till I can’t think
But when the crowd jumps
I still see
You in the lights
Reaching for me
[Chorus]