Passenger Seat

Yeah…

I ain’t even mad at you

That’s the fucked-up part

I just miss my friend

You know?

Used to hit me after work like, “Where we headed?”

Didn’t need a destination, long as you were in it

You on the passenger side, legs crossed on the console

Playing with your hair, talking ’bout shit only we know

I started catching feelings, tried to keep ‘em in

‘Cause I knew if I said it, something might have to end

But I couldn’t lie forever, had to tell you how I felt

Wasn’t asking you to love me, just was asking you to be yourself

Then you told me that you loved the way we were as friends

Said you never looked at us and thought of more than that

And I told you I was cool, said I held no resentment

But “I’m okay” and “I’m over it” ain’t always the same sentence

I miss you, but I won’t say it

‘Cause I don’t wanna make you feel like you gotta stay

I love you, but I won’t chase it

You already told me how you feel, so I gotta face it

And I don’t miss what we could’ve been

I miss the talks, the drives, my best friend

Funny how somebody can still be alive

But feel so far away when they used to be right by your side

Now you get rides from somebody else, I notice

I leave early from work, act like I don’t care, but I know it

You look away when I’m talking, I look away too

Both pretending that we’re strangers when we know what we been through

You ask if I’m working, so maybe there’s still something

Maybe you miss the old me, maybe I’m just assuming

I see you watching sometimes, then you turn your face

And I’m stuck wondering if you miss me in the same way

I ain’t trying to read too deep into every little sign

I just wish we could go back before I crossed that line

‘Cause I’d rather have you as my friend than lose you completely

But damn, it’s hard pretending that I don’t miss you deeply

I miss you, but I won’t say it

‘Cause I don’t wanna make you feel like you gotta stay

I love you, but I won’t chase it

You already told me how you feel, so I gotta face it

And I don’t miss what we could’ve been

I miss the talks, the drives, my best friend

Funny how somebody can still be alive

But feel so far away when they used to be right by your side

Maybe one day we laugh about it

Maybe one day it don’t hurt to talk

Maybe one day you sit beside me

Like you used to on those after-work drives

And if that day never comes

I’ll still be thankful that it did

‘Cause for a little while, you weren’t just somebody

You were home when I needed somewhere to exist

So nah, I don’t hate you

I don’t blame you

You don’t owe me the feelings I gave you

I just wish you knew…

I never wanted to lose my best friend.

I just happened to love her too.