Intro]
I’m just
An overweight man.
Crooked nose
Dark childish jokes.
Nothing special.
Trying to find meaning
In a meaningless life
[Verse]
Depression. PTSD
Looked at like a brother
Always had an ear to listen
But never a hand to hold.
Tossed out the window of life
Like a used coffee cup
[Chorus]
Ghosts of the past. Ghosts of betrayal
Only looked over.
Never looked at.
Why am I never enough
Why am I…………..here?
[Verse]
I spent ten years living the dream
a house full of love
A wife
Two kids
And a dog.
But like so many stories
It ended poorly.
But who I was
Was not who I am meant to be.
[Bridge]
I spent 13 years.
Swiping right
Just to be left
In the growing pile of rejections
After 13 years she just showed up
Like a magicians assistant
Appearing out of thin air
I couldn’t believe my eyes
[Verse]
What did she see in me?
Why did she message back?
Is it my mask?
Is it because I’m showing…..
Who…I could be????
[Chorus]
Ghosts of the past. Ghosts of betrayal
Only looked over.
Never looked at.
Why am I never enough.
Why am I……….here?
[Verse]
I applied so much meaning
So much hope.
It’s too good to be true
So I lit a fire. And let it burn.
Let her walk away without a fight
Watch her go into someone else’s
Arms.
I couldn’t blame her
I did her wrong……..
[Chorus]
Ghosts of the past. Ghosts of betrayal
Only looked over.
Never looked at.
WHY AM I NEVER ENOUGH!!!!!!
WHY AM I………..here
Ghosts of the past. Ghosts of betrayal
Only looked over.
Never looked at.
Why am I never enough.
Why am I here?
(Spoken word no music, angry, sad)
Why the fuck am I here????
[Verse]
Despite the fire
Despite the hurt and anger
She came back
Holding up a mirror
She told me
(Female voice)
“Just take it slowly,
Just be yourself)
(Lead male singer.)
A woman who wants me
This flips the narrative
It’s hard to accept
She is giving the tools
I need to see me
The blurry man in the mirror is not quite me.
I don’t need you to save me
I just need someone to
Walk
With
Me
[Outro]
I can’t say where tomorrow may take me
As she holds up this mirror
I start seeing clearer
The man in the mirror
I may love too much
I may push too fast.
Only to find
The ghosts of my past
I know tomorrow is never promised
But today is……
Scary(pause pause)
And
Beautiful
Ghosts of the past
They still haunt……me
(Fade back in)
(Female singer)
“You’re overthinking this.
I love you for who you are
And I’ll help you see
The man I see”
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